I really wish I could hack my google account so I could change my fucking password lol. I used to love coming on here but i can only do it on this stupid tablet i hate using. anyway for those of you still listening out in the void, i’m almost 6 months sober off of booze. fucking c r a z y i used to drink so much and act so stupid. i’m glad my life is different now

haven’t been on here in a hell of a long time and that’s exactly why I’m posting this here: where nobody will see it lol.
I’m going sober today and I’m scared out of my fucking head. I’m not ready for superadvanced depression and paranoid anxiety but also I need to fucking regulate myself and my emotions. I’m constantly trying to feel so grateful for life but its hard when I can really only appreciate it when I’m high. I haven’t let myself feel anything in the past four years and I’m scared of what will happen without any crutch. I know I’m gonna completely fall apart and I’m not ready for it but I also know that constantly being high is the literal reason for all of this blockage and overwhelm that I will inevitably feel. I’m not ready but I’m so fucking ready to kick this thing. In the wise words of days n daze: fuck it!

I’m so happy. billy’s mom loves me, billy’s dad loves me, billy’s friends love me and i just always knew he was the right person for me. we should be getting engaged in the coming months once our finances are more stable and i couldn’t be happier to marry my best friend. i love him so much.

wahoorat:

*to the tune of we built this city*

We poopy shitty!!

we poopy shitty big fart butt hole

I look at all my last posts about billy and it’s just completely clear to me that we were meant to be together. i love this boy more than life itself i’m so happy we’ve been together for almost a whole ass year!

mushrooms are so fun to do

i haven’t been on here in a hot minute! i’ve been living with billy in our apartment and we’ve been dating for a while and everything is great and also i can’t see any posts on here. they all come up gray. i need someone to hack into my email lmao this shit is fucked. i miss tumblr

i got offered a full time job today. everything is great. what the fuck is going on? i’m skeptical

I know I don’t ever post here anymore but things are great!! i’m getting an apartment w billy and we’re together kinda sorta or will be when we get the apartment whatever i’m not rushing it bc things are fucking great and i’ve never been happier. oh and i quit smoking!! so yeah its pretty lit tbh

my friend died, lost my phone, i have no idea what i’m doing